Monday, January 30, 2006

"Friends are Friends Forever"

This post was on a good friend, Vanessa's, blog and as I had been thinking about this very thing, I thought I would post it here. I am in need of the same friends as she is, and graciously, the Lord has provided just that. Praise the Lord!
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Sunday, January 29, 2006

Friends
Not to sound cheesy and sentimental [cue Michael W. Smith's A Friend is a Friend Forever here], but I am overwhelmingly thankful to the Lord for my friends. He is teaching me how to appreciate the diversity that exists among them and how He expresses His character in them uniquely. I realize how desperately I need them, to learn and be challenged, encouraged, comforted, and a whole range of emotions. But among these, I NEED them in the fight for the Gospel. I NEED friends who are willing to go the darkest nations for eager ears to hear; I NEED friends who are willing to engage in the business and professional world; I NEED friends who fight for Truth in law-making and political thought; I NEED friends who will teach their children to fear the Lord; I NEED friends who will gently lead their future wives and joyfully submit to their husbands; I NEED friends who show me how to love Jesus more and walk (rather limp) towards the cross...
"Oil and perfume make the heart glad, so a man's counsel is sweet to his friend" Prov 27:9(come on, you know the picture is cute...)
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How true. A man's counsel is so sweet.

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Proverbs 17:17


So Thankful for My Friends,
Rebekah

Saturday, January 28, 2006

"And Now My Lifesong Sings"

I'm a musician, by both profession, as well as by passion... making music is by far the most enjoyable thing I can think of. There are few things I would rather do that play an instument or sing. It's simply on of my greatest joys... and has been for as long as I can remember.

I have been thinking this last week over my testimony... not the testimony of my salvation, but of the everyday manifestaions of Christ in my life. As I was thinking about how the Lord has proven Himself over and over to me in the last 3, almost 4, years since my father's death, I realized that I marked different times, and file different occurances in my life by songs... not by years, or certain events, but by songs. I know this is NOT normal, but then few things about me seem to be "normal". I guess I do this because I relate so much of life to music. I constantly hear it in my head; when I'm having a conversation, looking at pictures, whatever, there is a continual concert playing in my mind. And therefore, as I remember various times of the past, I see them with music that goes with it... that follows the theme of whatever it is I'm remembering. And therefore, when I started reflecting on God's amazing goodness to me, and chroniclizing it in my mind, there was music to match it all the way through. Many of the songs that I believe have characterized certain times in my life I've already talked about on this blog, and many of them could almost completely tell my life story... but just almost, never totally. And as I thought about this, I wondered if there was a song that could be "MY SONG"; the song that told my story... the way I want my life to be. And immediately a song came to mind. It's a song a friend of mine introduced me to, by one of my favorite artists, Casting Crowns. And so, I wanted to share with you, through song, the prayer that I pray will be true of my life, as well as yours; that our "lifesong" truly may sing to Him.

Singing,
Rebekah


And Now My Lifesong Sings

I once was lost, but now I'm found.
I once was lost, but now I'm found.
So far away, but I'm Home now.
I once was lost, but now I'm found.
And now my lifesong sings.

I once was blind, but now I see.
I once was blind, but now I see.
I don't know how, but when He touched me,
I once was blind, but now I see.
And now my lifesong sings.
And now my lifesong sings.
And now my lifesong sings.

I once was dead, but now I live.
I once was dead, but now I live
Now my life to You I give.
Now my life to You I give.
Now my life to You I give.

Hallelujah, Hallelujah!
Let my lifesong sing to You!
Hallelujah, Hallelujah!
Let my lifesong sing to you!
Hallelujah, Hallelujah!
Let my lifesong sing to you!
Hallelujah, Hallelujah!
Let my lifesong sing to you!
As performed by Casting Crowns


Amen.

Friday, January 27, 2006

A Letter from Home

I received this e-mail from my mom just now, and was amazed to hear the full story for the first time on all that the Lord has done in my family's lives the last few weeks! I wanted to post this here, as I think it just goes to show (so perfectly!) the Lord's sovereign hand in my family's lives... His gracious provision, and faithful leading to "a place which you do not know". I think that is so neat to see Him work that way, and I was greatly encouraged to hear what my mom had to say of this and wanted all who read this to receive the same blessing, and to see that He has been, and IS, and will continue to be ALL that He has said He will be. Amen.

Standing Amazed, Yet Again,
Rebekah


Dearest Friends!

It is with the greatest of delight that I write to you again from our new residence in Louisiana! So much has happened so quickly that I haven't had much opportunity to keep you informed, but having said that, God has worked in such incredible ways that I simply must share it with you so you, too can rejoice and give Him all the praise and glory due to Him alone!

I last wrote on Monday, January 9th. On Wednesday the 11th, I met with the elder who is also my real estate agent and the two men who oversee our financial support. The purpose of the meeting was to consider the real estate market and my financial position. I knew going into the meeting that these factors would not paint a pretty picture. Also, by this time I was aware that if the sale of the house continued as proposed, I had 16 days to pack and move ... somewhere. The outcome of the meeting was that the housing market in the Lake Charles area was terrific ... if you were selling, with houses selling sometimes within 12 hours of being listed. Houses much smaller than ours and needing much more attention were selling for FAR more than I would get for our house in Beaumont. This was the primary purpose of the meeting - to determine how we might best respond to this set of circumstances. As we talked, it became clear that regardless of the housing market and my finances, my family would need a place to live in about two weeks and I would most likely not find a house to purchase in that time frame (and even if I did, I wouldn't be able to make that sort of decision that quickly). Renting became the next topic for discussion and Steve explained that the rental market was even more difficult. The conclusion of the meeting was that we were all trusting in God alone to provide, knowing that the circumstances looked bleak from our perspective.

And that last phrase is where the beauty in all this lies! Our perspective. Isn't it wonderful to serve a God like ours who isn't limited to our perspective?! How comforting to trust in One who knows and sees and controls all things! "The earth is the LORD'S, and all it contains, The world and those who dwell in it." (Psalm 24:1) These dear brothers in the Lord left that meeting with their various "assignments" ... I think my assignment was to trust God! The next morning I received a call from one of these men telling me that I would be moving out of my home in 8 days. He asked me to simply go home and pack up and sell the house and he would take care of everything else if I could just trust him to do that. Could I trust him to do that???? I still have to chuckle at that ... of COURSE, I could do that!!! Just about 24 hours later I was informed that I had temporary housing provided by a family in the church, should there be no rental property available by our move-out date. Also, storage was provided since it seemed likely that wherever we ended up, there would not be enough space for much of our belongings. The church graciously allowed me to "store" my piano on the platform. And the most exciting part, in an unrelated phone call, my real estate
elder (!) learned of a 3BR/2Bath apartment that would likely become vacant in about a week. As it turned out, we moved out of our home in Beaumont on Friday the 20th, spent the night in the home of our pastor and his wife (again ... what hospitality they have shown to us!) and on Saturday the 21st we moved into our duplex!

Just so you will know how much our Father loves to take care of the details, I don't want to forget to mention that the former occupant of this duplex is a brother in Christ (though I don't know him) who interceded (as I understand it) on our behalf with the landlord. He moved out just before noon and we moved in right at noon. The deposits were waived and the remainder of January's rent was taken care of in some fashion unknown to me, but not to my Provider! Isn't He wonderful?! So, for those of you who prayed with me for that very clear direction ... I think this qualifies as a powerful response from our Father, the Giver of all good gifts. "Ask, and it will be given to you; ...If you then being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!" (Matthew 7:7a,11) "Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow." (James 1:17) THANK YOU for praying with us and for us. I trust that you are as thrilled to see how God continues to show His faithful ... and CREATIVE! provision as we are. Thank you for allowing me to be obedient to 1 Chronicles 16:8-12 and Psalm 105:1-5 "Oh give thanks to the LORD, call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples. Sing to Him, sing praises to Him; Speak of all His wonders. Glory in His holy name; Let the heart of those who seek the LORD be glad. Seek the LORD and His strength; Seek His face continually. Remember His wonders which He has done, His marvels and the judgments uttered by His mouth...."

That last phrase about remembering what He has done reminds me. I mentioned in the last update Daniel's sweet response of excitement to see what God was going to do. Well, the next day found him coming to my bedroom and closing the door to speak to me. His eyes looked a little teary as he asked me, "Mom, what are we going to do if we can't find a place to live?" I had to smile as I asked him how old he was. He said, "Ten." I asked him how many times in his 10 years he had been homeless. He answered, "None." I told him that in my 46 years of life I had never been homeless either and I thought we could continue to trust God to provide shelter for us. He thought about that and then said, "I know ..., but what if we can't find a place to live?" I smiled again and reminded him that we had been in this position before where things looked impossible (from our human perspective) but God had always worked in His own way to provide, usually more than what we had even desired. He pondered that one and then asked, "Yes..., but what if we can't find a place to live?"

So I sat down and retold the stories of our move to Sugar Land when no one would rent to a family with FOUR children ... until God provided a house. Then of our move to Dallas when World Impact just couldn't seem to get the house purchased and God provided housing in Kansas. Then when it was time to move back to Dallas and the house wasn't inhabitable how God provided housing with a dear widow and then later a couple. Then when we left World Impact and I was facing surgery and 6 weeks of recovery we couldn't find even a one bedroom apartment to rent among the Hispanic people and God provided a guest house for 4 of the 6 weeks of recovery with a family who have become such dear friends in the Lord ... and even that 4 weeks stretched into 6, so that there was no need to move during my recuperation! Then when we moved to Edinburg to attend language school, we couldn't find ANYONE who would rent to a family with SIX children!! But God - in His timing - (read at the very last moment!) - provided again a house that was above and beyond what we had even desired. Then when Ron was dying in the hospital and we had no home at all, God provided THREE houses for us so that upon his death, I simply left the hospital and walked into a fully furnished 3 BR home! When that provision ended, we once again found ourselves in a place where finding someone to rent to a family with SIX children seemed impossible. Ah, but "...nothing will be impossible with God!" (Luke 1:37) God provided a wonderful home that was more than adequate for our needs. Let's see ... that amounts to about eight times when God provided shelter for us when each time there was no way that we could see and even our most intense efforts at providing shelter were thwarted.

I remember sitting in the big house in Dallas writing in my journal that I considered it a privilege to be facing surgery, a move to who knew where, a change in ministry etc. because I knew I would have an opportunity to see God at work up close. I am thankful for the privilege of experiencing all the above situations because it is through them that I truly was able to rest in the knowledge that He most surely would provide for our housing need this time too. I know that Daniel will not forget this either, and I am thrilled when I consider how God might use these experiences in the lives of these dear children He has loaned to me! I pray that we will not be like the Israelites who did not remember His abundant kindnesses and quickly forgot His works. (Psalm 106:7b, 13a)

So praise Him with us for His goodness, His faithfulness, His provision and care! Then get out your pencil and erase (yes, once more) our contact information. I would encourage you to enter this new information in pencil as well, since I don't think we will remain here! (smile)

I forgot to mention that Rebekah is staying in the Beaumont/Liberty area with both sets of grandparents for now as she has work obligations. I would appreciate your prayers for her future plans as we trust Him to provide more direction there.

Rachel has transferred to McNeese State University in Lake Charles. The incredible blessing here is that when she transferred to their Honors College program, she received financial aid that not only paid for her tuition, books, and meals but also for most of her housing, which is a blessing since we do not have a car for her to drive and her living on campus will save me much time and expense in transporting her to and from campus. This blessing is also evident in that with her living on campus, the reduction in the size of our household will better accommodate our duplex. God is so GOOD!

As always, I thank you for your prayers on our behalf. I am privileged to pray for you as well, as you keep me informed of your family and needs. "O magnify the LORD with me, And let us exalt His name together." (Psalm 34:3)

"How lovely are Your dwelling places, O LORD of hosts!
My soul longed and even yearned for the courts of the LORD;
My heart and my flesh sing for joy to the living God.
The bird also has found a house,
And the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young,
Even Your altars, O LORD of hosts,
My King and my God.
How blessed are those who dwell in Your house!
They are ever praising You."
Psalm 84:1-4

Praising my Savior, all the day long,
Bonnie

Friday, January 20, 2006

"He Is Good"

"He is good, He is good.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord
For He is good.
He is good, He is good.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks for He is good.

For His unfailing love
And His wonderful deeds
Give thanks, give thanks to the Lord.

He is good, He is good.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks for He is good."
"He is Good" as performed by Steve Green

This is a song that Steve Green sings. The words are very simple, but full of profound truth. And this song has been on my heart tonight... forcing my mind to recall the many different ways that He has been so very good to me.

Tonight I got a call from a very dear friend... she said her mom was kicking her out of their house, and she had nowhere to go and therefore needed a place to stay. I was totally unprepared for that. Never saw it coming. And while waiting to find out if she would be coming to stay with me or not, and witnessing and hearing things that I have been blessed to never experience before tonight (and certainly not directed towards me), I thought, "I have been so blessed. God has been so merciful to me. He is so good."

I was blessed with parents who never once even threatened to put me out of our home. In fact, they did all they could to keep me there!.. and seemingly are sometimes still trying to keep me there. (smile) But how good is He to allow me the priviledge to have had parents that love me so much, that they don't even want me to move away! That was the first thing I thought of.

The second was that I have a home. As it turns out at this point, my friend is still in her home with her family, but she could have just as easily been forced to leave. And if she had to do that, while there are people who love her and would willingly take care of her, she, herself would not have a home that would be her own. I do. In fact, I have several. My mom's house (whereever that may be... depending on the day... smile) is one. I know that I will be able to live there at any time, should the need arise. I have my house that I'm waiting to move into (should the day ever arive!). I have my grandparents that would let me live with them and consider their home as mine... I have homes all over the place! If for some reason I ever had to leave my own home, I know I wouldn't have to worry for a moment about having a place to stay... I could even be choosy and pick where I'd like to go most. A luxury that I have been reminded tonight, not all people have.

These two things alone, I so take for granted. I have never been blessed before in the way that I have tonight... I have never really had the opportunity to see and hear before what I have tonight. And while at some points this evening I have been scared out of my mind, and more confused than I ever have, I can see this as an amazing reminder of God's goodness to me. And it is incredible. I did nothing to deserve it, and obviously am not as thankful of it as I should be... I don't even acknowledge it when it's so clearly present! But I have been reminded tonight... and as terrible as this evenings events have seemed, I pray I never forget them, or the thoughts it produced. He is good.


Remembering His Goodness,
Rebekah

Thursday, January 19, 2006

"Do I Trust You, Lord?" I should... "He's Always Been Faithful to Me"

"Sometimes my little heart can't understand,
What's in Your will, what's in Your plan.
So many times I'm tempted to ask You, "Why?"
But I can never forget it for long:
Lord, what You do could not be wrong.
So I believe You, even when I must cry.

Do I trust You, Lord? Does the river flow?
Do I trust You, Lord? Does the north wind blow?
You can see my heart, You can read my mind,
And You got to know I would rather die
Than to lose my faith in the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I know the answers, I've given them all.
But suddenly now, I feel so small.
Shaken down to the cavity in my soul.
I know the doctrine and theology,
But right now they don't mean much to me.
This time there's only one thing I've got to know.

Do I trust you, Lord? Does the robin sing?
Do I trust you, Lord? Does it rain in spring?
You can see my heart, You can read my mind
And You've got to know I would rather die
Than to lose my faith in the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

Lord, I'm keeping my eyes on You,
Following You, following You.
My Lord, I'm keeping my eyes on You,
Following You, following You.
I won't look to the left or right;
My only goal is keeping You in my sight.
Lord, I'm keeping my eyes on You,
Following you, following You.
My Lord, I'm keeping my eyes on You,
Following you, following You, my Lord.

We will glorify the King of kings,
We will glorify the Lamb,
We will glorify the Lord or lords
Who is the great I AM.
Who is the great I AM.
Who is...

I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why.
I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die.
I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain!
You were God before, and You'll never change.
I will trust You. I will trust You.
I will trust You, Lord.
I will trust You. I will trust You.
I will trust You Lord."
"Do I Trust You?" as performed by Twila Paris

This is a medley of songs written by Twila Paris. I've never heard the second verse before, but was amazed to see it! This song completely encompasses what I'm going through in my walk with the Father right now. It's a constant question in my mind, "Do I trust You?" And the answer varies from time to time... sometimes it's an automatic, resounding, "YES!" And at other times, when my faith is quite small, the answer is a wavering one. However, even when I'm wavering, as I did most of last week, His steadfastness remained the same. And how comforting a thought. And this song very clearly reminds me of that. The concept of His trustworthiness is never in question... it's always there in full. The question does not lie in, "Is He trustworth?" The question lies in, "Will I choose to trust the Only One completely deserving of my trust? Or will I trust in things or people destined to fail me at some point (whether intentionally or otherwise)?" When put like this, the question seems so obvious... and it is obvious! It's the day-to-day, constant, repetative handing over of my trust that seems so elusive to me. I can remeber that He is worthy of my trust in theory... I can remember that quite well. It's the actual act of placing that trust that remains a struggle. And why is that? How many times has He failed me before? Never. So why do I so quickly and easily fall back onto those things that fail me every day? "Great question, Rebekah. Why do you?" I don't know. He has never given me reason to doubt Him; in fact, He's promised me that He will remain faithful to me! Deuteronomy31:6 says, "Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you He will not fail you or forsake you." Joshua 1:5 says, "No man will be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I have been with Moses, I will be with you; I will not fail you or forsake you." Hebrews 13:5 says, "...for He Himself has said, " I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU...." He has promised this, and what He says He will do, He will be faithful to do! And over and over again He has proven this to me. I have distinct memories of His faithfulness displayed to me and my family, from an early age... at the age of 2 I remember my mom taking pictures of our kitchen countertops filled with food from friends supporting us while my father was in the hospital. Or at 13, getting a phone call from a woman we had never met saying, "I wanted to something for your family. If y'all will go up to the church, I left somethings for you there." We had 8 dollars in the bank... but when we got there... there was everything we could need... from cereal and milk, to diapers and wipes. Or at 17, being housed, fed, and loved by the Body of Christ while my father spent his last days on this earth in a hospital dying. Or at the age of 20, when the Lord provided friends to comfort and encourage me when I felt very alone. He's always been trustworty. He's always been faithful. That was never a question. And I pray that I will always remember that... but I hope that I never remember it without remebering my own lack of trust, or my faithlessness so that I will realize the full beauty of His promises to me. I pray that "I might decrease, so that He may increase." For He is worthy of all trust... because He is faithful.


"(Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!)

Morning by morning I wake up to find
The power and comfort of God's hand in mine.
Season by season I watch Him amazed,

In awe of the myst'ry of His perfect ways.
All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me.

I can't remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain.
I can't remember one single regret

in serving God only and trusting His hand.
All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me.

This is my anthem, this is my song,
The theme of the stories I've heard for so long.
God has been faithful, He will be again.

His loving compassion, it knows no end.
All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful, He's always been faithful,
He's always been faithful to me."
"He's Always Been Faithful to Me" as performed by Sarah Groves

Attempting to trust,
Rebekah